新的开始~

大家都开始去做个新发型迎接新年咯~~
让我也来给自己的头发换个新颜色^^

谢谢Byran的赞助哦!~

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师父帮我改的名字终于都收到了~~

大家好！！

我是张蕙媛 =)

用着这个名字重新开始吧！！！

该忘的 都是时候忘掉了~~~

In the moment of recovery!

After a big deep hurt in relationship... well... is time to Pamper myself!!!
Let's get a full body massage and a fish Spa~~

Fisho leg SPA~♥

While waiting for the full body massage~
Enjoying the comfortable VIP chair and watching Astro in the private waiting room :P


Pretty nice and Thanks Nick for the treat =)

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I also can enjoy my own red wine session with my best friend Esther! ♥


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Finally, I manage to ate this!!! The Kluang herbal chicken noodle soup!!! ♥

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Medicine Allergic reaction....

Eyes swelling....

When I need help at mid night.... I don't know who to call...

Who can actually fetch me to hospital or clinic.....

I hate this feeling!!! Thanks god at last i still manage to get someone to help me....

You will never want to see this... =(

just to show you my most ugly photo... during the allergic period....

it was very terrible.... Don't get shock k....

~ ~ Day One....

Mid night 3am plus.... couldn't breath well... totally unable to open my eyes...

~~~ Next morning

after injection.... able to open my eyes... but still terrible swelling...

~~~ Went to get another injection again.... visit another DR again......

~~~ Day three.... getting better.... 70% recover.....

~~~~ Day five.... 96% recover after finished five days medicine....

it was really killed me during that time.... no way to go....

wearing cap and sun glass whole day and night.... XD

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Yet~ Days three during allergic~

I still went to PD attending my friend's Joan Joan wedding!

The view from the apartment ♥ facing the sea side =)

I'm trying my best make up..... to make myself from ugly.... turn to a bit normal.... XD

already try my best but eyes still very small and face swelling as well......

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Day fours during allergic at PD~~

I need to wear my sun glass the whole day~~

my eyes... still swelling XD

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The bridegroom with all his brothers!!!!! all nice cars :P

The sisters side!!! Need to get the bride must ask us 1st :P heheheeeee....

The sweetest moment.... ♥ Best wishes for them~

The "Gangster wife" version :P

Look so pity lololol~~~~

Super big Ang paw from bridegroom~~ =D

All of us~~~ ♥ Yeah!!

Last! Me and Mei Yan :P

受伤后的我～人前笑,一个人的时后却好無助。。。

吃甜品的时间又到了 XD
我究竟是怎么啦。。。

我又再一次的找人陪我吃甜品了。。。
吃完了才记得拍照 哈哈。。。

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他来找回我。。。
他说他不能忘记我。。。
他约我出去。。。
其实我也不知道想什么的。。。
傻傻的。。。答应了他。。。
那晚他约了我。。。约了他的朋友一起出来喝酒。。。
他好像没什么的。。。都没有向我解释为何要欺骗我。。。
就是什么事情都没发生那样。。。
猜不透。。。

那一晚。。。
发生了好多好多的事。。。
令我真的完完全全的崩溃。。。
那个画面还不停的重复在我脑海里。。。
突然间另一个女人出现在他家楼下大喊。。。还要喊他“老公”！
整个人都没灵魂那样。。。
什么都想不到了。。。
事实好残酷。。。
发生的太快。。。我还不能去面对。。。
然而我还要去帮他安慰他的女人。。。
那。。。谁来安慰我。。。
我还是要自己站起来面对。。。
硬硬的笑。。。

我可以忍受你不够爱我。。。
可是就是忍受不到你欺骗我。。。
对感情的不认真。。。
到处玩弄女人的态度。。。
觉得”薇某人“好伟大。。。可以忍受他两年来多。。。
无论他怎么样，不停的犯错。。。身边很多很多的女人。。。
”薇某人“还是对他不离不弃。。。
我看我做不到吧～
我不能忍受我的男人和人一起分享。。。

我究竟是什么？。。。 是你的玩具吗。。。

我又再一次的告诉自己别因为一个这么坏的男人影响自己的心情和生活。。。

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同事的女儿满月咯。。。
幸福的她来公司派礼饼～
好羡慕。。。
这些甜品能足够我修补今天的心情吧～
午餐回来了。。。
突然收到一束花。。。
我还以为是他送来认错。。。
可是不是他。。。

而是一位不知为什么要送花来的朋友。。。
他约了我好多次。。。
说真的没那个必要吧。。。
希望我拒绝他这么多次可以放过我。。。
别再烦我了。。。
然而还是要对他说一声谢谢吧！


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朋友约了出去庆祝生日。。。
不想一个人在家。。。
和朋友出去是最好的吧。。。
不用想这么多。。。

大家都好久没出来了。。。
可是好像没有以前那样的happening~
有的吃完就走了。。。
我和April好无奈。。。
无无聊聊的去看看衣～
来一个照！
来一个鬼脸～
回到我们庆祝生日的地点~来个微笑的合照～
两位美里的生日主角～Daphene~ Rhea
我们这一班VVIP models和photographers～好久都没安排这样的聚会了～
下一场～我们来到了Library~ 来一杯Hoegarden~
大家都玩的好开心。。。
我哪无助的心情又再一次冲上了我的头。。。
一个人坐在一边。。。
看着他们硬硬的微笑。。。
好想哭。。。
忍。。。。 忍着微笑。。。

第二天早上。。。无无聊聊的找朋友去吃甜品咯。。。
甜品是修补我心情的良药。。。
好胖好胖 XD

星期天的我好无聊哦。。。。没有一个地方是属于我的。。。
爱情对我来说好没有安全感。。。
我都已经分不清楚到底爱情是什么。。。。

为什么这么戏剧化的画面会出现在我的身上。。。
想不通。。。
接受不了。。。

空虚

杯子破了。。。
不好的预兆。。。
狂喝甜品。。。俢補心情。。。

再來。。。

第二天。。。受伤了。。。

今晩不想出去。。。

葖然好想家。。。

到最候还是出去了。。。

又狂喝甜品咯。。。

结束

我终于学会了。。。

原来爱

不只是靠感觉就足够了。。。
爱。。。
需要两个人一起。。。
经历过许多事情以后才能够找到的！
如果认识不久却对你山盟海誓
那就肯定不是“爱”！
就算再继续也不会有真爱。。。
只是一场骗局。。。
一场梦。。。

爱你的人。。。
并不会见死不救
就算失去救你的能力。。。
他也不会在生死关头而抛弃你。。。
他会陪在你身边一起熬过。。
在这时候抛弃你的他。。。
他是自私的。。。
他不够爱你。。。
他不负责任。。。

他并不是能和你终生的人。。。

学会了好多好多。。。
可是却对“信任”这两个字开始有了保留

曾经这么去相信的他。。。
到最后得到的只是一场空。。。

都是一大堆的谎言。。。

开始觉得人类好恐怖。。。

看不透。。。

猜不透。。。

是真是假。。。

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这几天我总是脑袋空空的。。。放工了。。。

一个人去看电影。。。
这是我第一次这么做呢。。。
就把戏票拍下来了。。。

一个人走。。。
最讨厌一个人的我。。。
还是要去面对。。。
去尝试一个人的时候

昨晚喝得好醉。。。
醉了。。。
想起他。。。
不太清楚当时自己怎样了。。。
可是我知道我哭了。。。
所有的人都看到我哭了。。。

好丢脸。。。
眼泪就是不能停下来。。。

好像全世界都停了。。。
只有我的哭声停不掉。。。

被骗后。。。
痛过了。。。
哭过了。。。
醉过了。。。
又再一次哭了。。。

我告诉我自己一定要振作起来。。。

把这个故事画上一个句点。

是我太傻

我想是我当时太傻了。。。
我以为一些都是真的。。。
好恨自己当时太天真。。。

来得这么快。。。
去得也快吧。。。

你所给的承诺。。。
都是空的承诺而已。。。
甜言蜜语难不到你。。。
原来你只是说说而已。。。

是我太笨吧。。。
相信幸福就在眼前。。。
还以为自己真的找到了。。。
以为你是真的存在。。。

原来所有这段时间发生的一切都不属于我的。。。

梦醒了。。。
我要回到现实的世界继续我的生活。。。
我要提醒自己不要再发白日梦了。。。
所有的甜言蜜语都是谎言吧了~

爱灭了。。。
我又再一次失败。。。
爱情的路上一直的跌倒。。。
跌到遍体鳞伤了。。。
好疼好疼。。。

爱来爱去。。。
还是一场空。。。
好累。。。

Just A Dream

Everything just like a dream....

and I gonna awake myself....

Next time....

I will see everything properly before making any decision....

I hate this dream....

I feel myself is damn stupid and useless....

why am I so easy to trust a person....

keeping silent.....

I'm so upset now....

I'm totally lost.....

The beginning of 2010~

This year~ ♥
Count down 2010 at Centro... with Jacky and his friends~

This was actually last min only we decided where we want to go…
Earlier on… thought that joining Esther eat steamboat or joining friends count down at Sunway or Damansara area….

Don’t want to think too much~
Dinner 1st before decided everything… I was so hungry ~~ lolol
Yum Yum :P
My dish~~
This is belong to Jacky~
After our New Year eve dinner~ we decided join his friend to Centro~
In fact… I haven’t met up with his friends yet… as we just started being together =)
My 1st time didn’t put full make up to club :P
Yeeerrr..…. I feel myself very ugly in all the photo XD

Before the countdown begin~
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Viv Viv and Jacky~
Viv Viv and Michelle~ (We are same age~~ Urgh..... why am I look older XD)
Jacky's friends~~~
Getting drunk and high~ :P

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Well… You all must know sweet thing always comes while Love still in “Fresh” mood… ~
Ya… new relationship started always sweet~*

I’m now still remembering the moment while we were looking at each other…. Eyes to eyes from our heart~ Counting down 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and says Happy New Year to each other~ with a lovely kiss~ :-* it was really sweet and lovely~ ♥ Hope our sweet not only started… But forever~

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Viv Viv what’s New in 2010?

1) New relationship
♥ My 1st ring from him ♥
“Vivian Chong reserve belongs to Jacky Kuek” XD

2) New Working hours
From 8.40am to 5.30pm change to 9am to 5.50pm
Recently…. Always late to work lolol….
So… I think is better for me to change it instead of using the previous working hour….

3) New Job Task… transferring under New Manager
I told my boss while doing my appraisal last month…. I’m very bored with what I do now… almost can’t stand it anymore… I hope that I can learn new thing to explore my knowledge instead of keep doing the same thing in 2010….
So… I will transferring to handle Credit Related products… servicing Bankers, life assured, direct marketers… and so on.... with effective this Feb…

I will dealing with Alliance Bank and RHB Bank mostly~
but off course I’m still under Group Insurance Department still the same HOD =)

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Coming soon for 2010…
I want!!!

1) New colour for my hair =D
2) New Phone =D
3) New Lap Top =D
4) New Hand Bag =D
5) New Purse =D
6) New House =D Not buying ~ heheheee.... is renting~ if possible will move out after Chinese New Year~ =)
7) Off course new salary BOSS!!! Pray hard that my salary can increase in this year…. =D I’ll learn the new product ASAP~* I will make sure I can handle it~! Yap I CAN!!

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Wishes for 2010~

*Hopefully he is the one with me till the end of my life…
This is what we had promised to each other~
*Pray hard for my wealth… settle everything ASAP… and starting to do my saving after this year….


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Quote for 2010~

- No more looking back, look forward and walk only for future life~*
- Enjoy life, Play hard but must work smart :P
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That’s all for my New year~~ nothing much…

Life still goes on~ people still same… everything still running~

I’m still here…
Ya… I’m still here~
Writing and sharing all my nonsense thingy :P Blek

24th, 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th

Everyone out of town.... clearing annual leave.... holidays.... facebook seems quiet... Everyone wishing Merry Christmas... Good Bye 2009 Welcome 2010.... and Blah Blah Blah.....

What I had done for my Christmas holidays?

Christmas eve.... thought spend my night at SS2 as Ricky having a birthday blash party at home and he invited a lots friends to his house... no BBQ~ no big party~ all delivery food like Piazza and many bottle liquor around~
As promised earlier... me and Esther planning go to Kajang support Joanne~
so.... I didn't stay long at Ricky party... just around 15 mins and I leave.... >.<" (feel so bad....)
I only manage to ate one slice of Pizza for my Christmas eve dinner.... (=.=')"

Joanne bf -> aka Robert, he took over a cafe and lounge located at Kajang~ So we went to his place spending our Christmas eve there~ Started our journey around 10.30pm me, Esther, Ivan, some little young male monkeys (perhaps all Esther's friends :p) and Jacky~*

Just drink and keep drinking... play card's game... and I was playing pool with my lousy skill XD
I spot Jacky very good skill in playing Snooker! =D

too bad... I have no photos to show u all....
all photos copy right belong to Joanne..... and Esther..... I have no camera loh... sien...

Leaving Kajang around 3am~
Guess what... I had been chatting whole night long with Jacky till my working alarm turn on =.=" and it was 6.30am....

No way to go on 25th... so decided half day visit at Tajung Sepat~
I love the "Lover bridge" view there~~
Some photos snap by Me using Jacky's Lumix Camera :P

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Lover Bridge~
Nice view for photo shooting =D
Viv Viv and Jacky~~
The famous "Bao" here~~~ Lots people buying OOoh~~~ Super Good business~~~
We bought =D
Drinking fruit juice and eat bao :P
Yum Yum~~~ so delicious~~ =DI'm planning to have a gathering with my photography gangs to tajung Sepat~~ Mayb next year after Chinese New year bah ^___^
will plan it =D stay tune guys and girls~~~*

hmm... perhaps I had a very special Christmas this year ^^

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26th... early morning 6.20am started my journey to Sekinchan~~~ Photo shooting session with (Models - April and Renee), (Photographers - Rahul and Danny)

Unable to get a nice wheat farm over there.... every farm had been harvested.... Haizzzz....

Luckily... called up to Eagle... and Eagle lead me to fishing village~ another nice place for shooting~ I like the stone all around over there~~~

April not really in good mood~ but we manage to get some nice shoot there =)

Own snap~! Viv Viv and April~ my eyes.... couldn't open...
the sun just too bright XD wonder... how come April's eye can open so big geh....
Another snap :P
Renee enjoying the wind blowing on her face~
Rahul and Danny just keep snap snap snap three of us~

and myself..... I gain weight... Urgh!!!
I really gain weight.... I hate my arm... I hate my tight....
I hate my chubby face....

Finally here the out come from Rahul~*
Look fierce hor....
After Shooting.... fetching April back.... stopted at Cheras~~ and suddenly thinking about Ivan Lor as he just staying at Cheras so called him up and met him for a meal~~~

Heavy rain.... so stayed at Ivan place rest and sleep the whole evening till 9pm XD I was too tired that day.... woke up too early bah....

Sorry Ivan need to occupied your room hahahahaaaa..... :P

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27th.... last min cancelled the whole day plan... Jacky have to go down to Melaka for his business...

Rahul called me.... Joining him and Renee movie "The chipmunks 2" at Cap Square
Funny weekend movie~ Just watch laugh... and relax...
have to watch some comedy movie to make myself happy lolol~~~

The next round after movie... we heading to Curve... For dessert Pan cake~

After our dessert~ we head back to KL again.... Rahul need to grab some stuffs there~ so me and Renee just follow together~ well.... we too free nothing to do~~ XD

Reached home... already almost 10pm.... Yawn.... Tired

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28th....

Dinner cancelled...
hmmm.... look for Gavin... as he staying near by my house~
Dinner at Library + Hoegarden~
I was screaming very very lound that night.... inside my his car after I get drunk... Feel better after screaming XD

Another way for me to release my stress bah.... hahahahaaa....

Btw... I started lazy to blog recently... feel like need to take a break...

In fact...
I have no camera...
I have no Internet...
I have no good English...
I have no good idea what to post...
I have no one reading my blog...

Every time... have to wait for friend sending photos to me only I can post....
Everyday.... need to wait till after working hours only can blog in the office...
Every time.... need to use my electronic dictionary check spelling.... XD
Everyday.... have to think what else I can write and what I should write....

Mayb... just a short break...
Recently stress for work... financial.... and I started smoke so much.... smoke till I feel like want to vomit now..... =.="

OOoh ya... one more important thing would like to announce =)
I'm just starting in relationship! With someone very very sayang me~
I will announce on Valentine's day~~ :P stay tune loh...
Hopefully he is the last one... Pray hard XD

♥ Wishes To all My Friends and Visitors ♥

I not sure how many of you reading my blog....
As I didn't receive many comments from you guys also =( hmmmm....
Anyway... I don't care whether just one or two person or no one reading at all...
I just want to send my season greeting to the lovely and truly U~ Everyone of U ♥

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In this X-mas,

In the daytime if sun shine so shall Ur expectations come true,
At night when moon comes out so shall U receive blesses,
then if rain fall so shall it going to carry all your problem away from U!

Happy Merry Christmas!!